Hi, I’m new here. I just wanted to share my thoughts about my sexuality. I’ve been attracted to cisfemales my whole life but never had sex with themoutside of prostitutes. When I was in my early 20’s and still a virgin I saw Trans porn and was slowly hooked. But when I talked with trans people they ignored me and ghosted me just like cisfemales. So, I decided to have sex with a couple men when I was really drunk. I enjoyed those experiences but was extremely disgusted afterwards. Do gay people feel disgust? So, I never identified as gay.
As time went on I couldn’t date trans people and I couldn’t be attracted to men unless extremely horny and drunk.
I slept with many trans prostitutes in Mexico, Philippines, and Thailand. They were lovely but they were still prostitutes. I got the feeling many of them would date me if I wanted to.
But in America all I’ve ever had was derision and condemnation from trans people. They are worse to me than cisfemales. I don’t understand trans people here. I’ve even thought of transitioning to a female and I like to wear women’s clothing but I don’t feel like a woman.
It’s tough feeling rejected by not just females but LGBT. My mind is a confusing sex prison.